Frustration-flood

Of course, /tmp frustration outburst is only way of 'cooling down'. And it is safe, since nobody really reads this blog. I'd like to say, I'm still doing my best, working on the stuff, getting poorer by-the-minute...This is only my own
/dev/being730321xxxxx/log/stardate201303022133.log
log entry...

Sad as it may be....

I have 'only' 34188 days left on my licese for BDS 2006 (Borland Developer Studio 2006)...
It is much more, than I have to live, that's for sure, but...
What will be the number on this license, when I die?

93.7 years? IT IS A LOT, but I don't have that much.

I feel so underappreciated right now...
Maybe I create poor software? Or am I just stupid and naive - looser?